Kids nowadays!

Swaggers@swag kids be like,
- New dp wil be upload tonight, comment to get owntage.
- Comment below if yew x sombonq
- Who X Sombong Do Comment ( ♡) i Wana Check Out & I Wana Remove Te Overload Sombonq
- Do comment which one is your fav pixca of mine
- Spell Me as Meyh
- You as Yew
- Describe may be?
- Take selfies from all angles, edit, post them and ask people to comment below. 
Why? Look at your language please, don't kill it. Do some other better things. Byee.

p.s. The post above contains Malay and English language. Malay is a national language of Malaysia. 

Bae!

David Beckham. He looks hot even he is 40 now. Yeah, people say life starts at 40. He looks sexy in every way, handsome man! Beard suits him, tattoo suits him, and even clean shave suits him. All time favourite. Hope to see him some day!

Miles!

Walked miles to the library with my bestie and felt damn tired. We take it in a positive way, exercise maybe? I have walked many times and but not in a row. Never thought that walking to and fro twice will be this tiring. Haha. Come on, you should walk too! Walk, cherish the moment, talk more with your partners and breathe! Healthy life huh? Kinda.

Some say friends are fake and some say they are real. I don't know the real definition of friendship, but I have my own definition. I have many friends, some are being true to me. If you want to be a good friend to somebody, you should care for them. You should be there in their ups and downs. You don't message them whenever you're feeling down, but you can keep in touch with them. If somebody texts you every day and asks if you have eaten, then he/she really wants to chat with you. If somebody comes up to you and do some lovely things, he/she really loves you. If somebody gets angry for not getting your reply even if you have seen the text, he/she really cares about you and wants to chat with you. But what you do? You take the friendship for granted. You think he/she will be always there for you and you can text them whenever you want. It doesn't work that way. Yeah, we are adults and we are busy 24/7. But you can do something at least, once a week. It doesn't have to be that somebody to always text you and ask your whereabouts. If someone likes to give long replies, he/she is really interested in talking to you because he/she takes the effort and time to do so. So, love your friends the way they are. You'll only know their value whenever you see their empty chairs. Appreciate your friends. I love my friends and some, they mean the world to me. Teehee.

Rainbow days II !

After the week of orientation, two of roommates left the college and went to continue their studies at somewhere else. So Anie and I were alone in that room. After a week, I went back to my room after class and I saw things were arranged at the empty place in my room. I wondered whose things were those. Later, the new member of our room came to my room and smiled at me. I felt so awkward at first. It was all awkward moment we had together for a week. Then, we grew closer to each other. Finally, we both were best friends!! She is like my baby friend, she likes to be pampered. I tie her hair braids, I woke her up, cooked instant noodles for her whenever she was not feeling well, hugged her for no reason, and many more. She was so close to me than anybody else in that college, even though we both are from different races. She didn't talk to her friends because her friends talked to me, it's like she was jealous of me talking to others. She is super cute and bubbly. She gets pissed very easily. We had to be careful with her emotions, Haha. Three of us were so close to each other. We slept together, ate together and walked together. Like a small family. Syu and I used to run around our hostel while screaming. We were naughty back then. We used to go downstairs and knock other doors randomly and ran upstairs very fast so that we won't get caught. We used to lock ourselves in our locker and scream the hell out for fun. We used to hug and sleep in one bed, three of us. We took a lot of photos. But there were bad moments for Syu and me, we argued and didn't talk for a day. I didn't know what to do, I couldn't carry on my life without talking to her. The thing stopped us from talking back was our egoism. Both of us have a very high-level egoism. Unfortunately, she was sick that time and I didn't know that because we stopped talking. Somehow, the situation changed. She was throwing up and I had no idea how to go about it. I asked her how she was and she was sick. Eventually, we started to talk. She wanted to eat instant noodles and I made it for her. We were back on track. Haha. Yeah, I couldn't imagine my life without her back then. Actually, there are a lot of memories we had together because Syu and Anie were the first people for me to see after I wake up and the last people to see before I go to bed. Anie, Syu and me. <3

Rainbow days!

I saw the real rainbow in my life when I entered matriculation college, where all beautiful things happened and all nasty things I had turned beautiful. Weird huh? That's matriculation life. As a person who grew up in a mollycoddling family, college was the first boarding school for me. I always thought how people could live in hostels and manage their life without their family. I thought it was totally a bad experience. But what I had in Selangor Matriculation College was totally fun. It is situated in Banting, Selangor, about 10 minutes away from my house. Yes, I was lucky to get into a college which was so near to my house and I was so fortunate to get Selangor Matriculation College or else I would not get to meet these beautiful people in my life. Whenever I first entered this college, it was totally a disaster, but in a good way. My parents were rushing to send me off because they had to bring my sister for an important medical check up as she was just get discharged from the hospital. Other parents stayed with their children, but my parents sent me off and went back home. I was all alone sitting in my room, thinking what would happen next, who my roommates would be. Then, someone came near me and said 'Hi' and that's my roommate, Anie, a pretty creature. After like an hour, we were asked to go down and follow the facilitators to the sports center. We rushed that I forgot to wear my sports shoe and went down late. We had aerobic exercise session and after we were done, we ran to our rooms as we were only given 30 minutes to freshen up and get ready to come down for another session. I don't remember whether I get to bath or not, but I was wearing the same shirt because I had no time to iron a new one. I was starving to death and had my stomach aching like all the bacteria were eating my stomach walls. To worsen up the situation, my phone broke and I couldn't call my parents. I called them via my friend's phone and they came to meet me. I was crying because I was so tired and hungry. The next day, we had a lot more busy sessions, we had to rush to places. The whole week was so tiring, I had no food, I only had biscuits. I still remember I walked miles from the hall to my room because I didn't know that shortcut existed. I stopped by at a small store to buy some more biscuits and the moment I came back to my hostel, we were asked to gather for another session. I rushed to my room, threw my bag of biscuits and ran down. I was so hungry and my legs were paining like hell because I walked the whole college to reach my hostel. We had a lot of activities, we had our classmates meet up, sports and many more. The orientation was like hell. Finally, the last day arrived. We slept off in the room and I was almost crying because the facilitators were angry at us. I had to call my Indian facilitator to bring me to the hall. I sneaked into the hall. I was bloody excited that I was going to go home that afternoon. Finally, the one-week orientation ended and my dad came to fetch me. I went back home for 2 days and came back to college on Sunday. There, we are not allowed to go back in the weekdays, cannot go out in the weekends unless we are given permission to, can be banned from going out if we return to college after 7 p.m., cannot play truancy, and a lot of strict rules. But it disciplined me and it was all rainbow days. I had bad moments too, but good moments are worth to remember. 

The place where everything began! What a beautiful life I had! Tears can still roll down my cheeks if I think of you!
Selangor Matriculation College, where the BEST phase of my life took place.
A lot of struggles, endless assignments, too much of stress yet, I managed to go all way through.
I wish I could go back. I wish I could sleep in my room (AP3-T4-18) with my two beautiful roommates. I wish I could hug my baby friend, Syuhada and sleep with her. I wish I could still laugh and make silly jokes with Anie. God, these are the best people in my life. Anie, Syuhada, and me in that room for two semesters, two beautiful semesters. I wish I could still sit in the tutorial room and adore my lecturers, I wish I could still wait at the corridor just to see my crush pass by and smile silently. I wish I could still do assignments with my friends till late night. I wish I could still walk in the college streets and hoping to run into my crush. Why it only longed for 11 months. I miss my friends and the life I had. I wish I could go back to Syu and Anie and breathe KMS air. 

I dedicate this to my course mates! Come on people, we will be successful one day! We strive together, we will be someone in future. Breathe!

Sticks and Stones!

As you grow up, you face some challenges, a lot of nasty things happen in your life, people you love will give up on you, some will change thoroughly, and these are some negative things will happen in your life. What do you do? Give up and cry? Or stand up and face it? I tell you what, some things are just right there to destroy you entirely. It is just up to you if you want to give it a try or chicken out. You need to get up and screw it. Some things happen for a reason, whether it is for good or for bad, we will know if we try. Imagine of people in Somalia striving harder for a plate of food, people in Palestine get killed for nothing and so on. What do you get? The hardship you get in life is small. Did life bring you down? Then get up and challenge the life! Think positively and you will know things can change. Nobody can motivate you better than your mind! People can motivate you in any way but YOU, you the one know what you are going through. People will never understand. If you are having a hardship, just think 'It is temporary, I'm not going to die, the world hasn't ended'. Think positively, like 'I'm awesome, I can do great things, it is not a big deal'. Sleep with positive thoughts, get up with positive thoughts. Stop crying. Get up and do something so that you can fix something. You will be fine, believe me! Good thoughts, positive vibes will take you higher. I believe in God, if you do too, then leave it to God. Pray harder, seek to God. He is there, I believe. If you are an atheist, just think positively, nothing can stop you. Trust me, things are about to change. It is just matter of time. Cheer up! What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? Smile widely, chest up and walk proudly! Love yourself more. If things don't go the way you want, then do the things you love. Go for jogging, you can release stress. Trust me, you will be fine. Thumbs up if you feel relieved after reading this. Teehee. You are UNBREAKABLE. 

Angels!

And with words unspoken
A silent devotion
I know you know what I mean
And the end is unknown
But I think I'm ready
As long as you're with me

Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love, love, love

Part of my life!

I have like so many favourite English TV series. I watch all American, Canadian and British drama series. They are like a part of my life although its fictional. I cry for the sad moments and jump high for happy moments. I watch Grey's Anatomy, Revenge, Gossip Girls(which has ended), Pretty Little Liars, Jane by Design, Rookie Blue, NCIS Los Angeles, Law and Order(SVU), Suits and many more!! I started watching Grey's Anatomy when i was like 13 if i am not mistaken. It is the best drama series that i have ever watched in my whole life. It taught me a lot, mostly nasty things. HAHA. I learned that people can have s** before their marriage, people can move in without marrying somebody and i learned that homosexuality exists! LOL. I learned homos can have love for each other although it sounds kinda weird. I cried when Mark died, i cried when Derek died. Life is so short to be sad on things that don't exist huh? Haha i can't help myself. They are so good at acting. High 5 to those who actually watches the dramas that i watch. Hehe. Kttyl :)

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A Thousand Years!

Hi there! Had a rough day today. Had some disappointments too and it made me to think how could people like this exist in this world. But one good thing happened today and it is that I managed to message my old time crush. How cool is that? I was a little sad yesterday so i texted him for the very first time in my life. Bringing courage in myself and I typed 'Hello!'. He replied 'Hey' after 3 hours and saying that he was just back from football. He was so friendly and he remembers me!! Actually, we studied in the same matriculation college but we have never talked or smiled at each others. We barely know each other as we didn't meet that frequently. I had my own group of friends and didn't join Indian society much so i had a little touch with most of the Indians in college. But he added me on Facebook after both of us joined universities. Now it has been two years and half since i have known him. We finally texted! Kinda happy though. I am not sure if i should text him again or wait for a few days. My friend asked me to bring it slow. HAHA. SO yeah! <3 Teehee.Byee

BFF!

You know there is fun when you have good friends. I have many good friends who are quite fun and entertaining at the same time. i live in a small circle in my university where i have these beautiful friends. They are totally different race in which they are Malays actually. I have a big group of Malay friends where i feel more comfortable talking to them compared to others. Weird huh? In my university, I have Hana, Afina, Jiha, Pqah, Dena and many other friends. Mostly i have many good Malay friends. Whenever we live in a multiracial country, we will face many challenges such as racism is a common thing. But maturity get us through this beautiful friendship. I have never felt alone with these people. Afina is a happy-go-lucky girl who is always cheerful in her ups and downs. Hana is totally a cool person, whether it rains or burns to death, she will be smilling all the time. Jiha on the other hand slightly different from us. Pqah and Dena are totally cool people, you can joke around and be not worry about what you just said because they will take it as a joke and never judge you. Actually, these people are my classmates, not to forget i have Sivalosyini in my class too. She is a quiet type, doesn't talk much and only talks when it is necessary. Haha. All of us have gone through the same situation where we were less fortunate when we did not get the course we wanted but it has been a year since all that roller coaster moments has come to a water splash moment in jacuzzi. Haha what i'm saying is things are slowing down and we are getting used it. But we have this faith that we will be successful in future. Positive thinking wins the battle right? Believe.

PUZZLED!

Have you ever felt sad for nothing? As you are sitting inside of a dark box in a bright room with hundreds of people? As you feel lonely even though your friends are joking around and talking to you? But that's the thing. You cannot get up from that sadness and you do not know the reason behind the sadness. Is it because you get offended easily or you are just sad thinking of your life? I don't know because i'm in a such situation. I feel sad and down but i want to get outside from this dark box but what i do is just listening to songs to sink even deeper into sadness.

FRESHIE!

HELLO PEOPLE!! I am very new to this blog thingy. My friends influenced me to open a blog to write whatever i want. I love writing but i do not really share my stuffs to people very openly. There are many things that are still hidden from others. Privacy and secrecy i call it. So, i decided to finally open a blog and share things out to people. LOL. Teehee. Keep reading <3