Miles!

Walked miles to the library with my bestie and felt damn tired. We take it in a positive way, exercise maybe? I have walked many times and but not in a row. Never thought that walking to and fro twice will be this tiring. Haha. Come on, you should walk too! Walk, cherish the moment, talk more with your partners and breathe! Healthy life huh? Kinda.

Some say friends are fake and some say they are real. I don't know the real definition of friendship, but I have my own definition. I have many friends, some are being true to me. If you want to be a good friend to somebody, you should care for them. You should be there in their ups and downs. You don't message them whenever you're feeling down, but you can keep in touch with them. If somebody texts you every day and asks if you have eaten, then he/she really wants to chat with you. If somebody comes up to you and do some lovely things, he/she really loves you. If somebody gets angry for not getting your reply even if you have seen the text, he/she really cares about you and wants to chat with you. But what you do? You take the friendship for granted. You think he/she will be always there for you and you can text them whenever you want. It doesn't work that way. Yeah, we are adults and we are busy 24/7. But you can do something at least, once a week. It doesn't have to be that somebody to always text you and ask your whereabouts. If someone likes to give long replies, he/she is really interested in talking to you because he/she takes the effort and time to do so. So, love your friends the way they are. You'll only know their value whenever you see their empty chairs. Appreciate your friends. I love my friends and some, they mean the world to me. Teehee.

Rainbow days II !

After the week of orientation, two of roommates left the college and went to continue their studies at somewhere else. So Anie and I were alone in that room. After a week, I went back to my room after class and I saw things were arranged at the empty place in my room. I wondered whose things were those. Later, the new member of our room came to my room and smiled at me. I felt so awkward at first. It was all awkward moment we had together for a week. Then, we grew closer to each other. Finally, we both were best friends!! She is like my baby friend, she likes to be pampered. I tie her hair braids, I woke her up, cooked instant noodles for her whenever she was not feeling well, hugged her for no reason, and many more. She was so close to me than anybody else in that college, even though we both are from different races. She didn't talk to her friends because her friends talked to me, it's like she was jealous of me talking to others. She is super cute and bubbly. She gets pissed very easily. We had to be careful with her emotions, Haha. Three of us were so close to each other. We slept together, ate together and walked together. Like a small family. Syu and I used to run around our hostel while screaming. We were naughty back then. We used to go downstairs and knock other doors randomly and ran upstairs very fast so that we won't get caught. We used to lock ourselves in our locker and scream the hell out for fun. We used to hug and sleep in one bed, three of us. We took a lot of photos. But there were bad moments for Syu and me, we argued and didn't talk for a day. I didn't know what to do, I couldn't carry on my life without talking to her. The thing stopped us from talking back was our egoism. Both of us have a very high-level egoism. Unfortunately, she was sick that time and I didn't know that because we stopped talking. Somehow, the situation changed. She was throwing up and I had no idea how to go about it. I asked her how she was and she was sick. Eventually, we started to talk. She wanted to eat instant noodles and I made it for her. We were back on track. Haha. Yeah, I couldn't imagine my life without her back then. Actually, there are a lot of memories we had together because Syu and Anie were the first people for me to see after I wake up and the last people to see before I go to bed. Anie, Syu and me. <3

Rainbow days!

I saw the real rainbow in my life when I entered matriculation college, where all beautiful things happened and all nasty things I had turned beautiful. Weird huh? That's matriculation life. As a person who grew up in a mollycoddling family, college was the first boarding school for me. I always thought how people could live in hostels and manage their life without their family. I thought it was totally a bad experience. But what I had in Selangor Matriculation College was totally fun. It is situated in Banting, Selangor, about 10 minutes away from my house. Yes, I was lucky to get into a college which was so near to my house and I was so fortunate to get Selangor Matriculation College or else I would not get to meet these beautiful people in my life. Whenever I first entered this college, it was totally a disaster, but in a good way. My parents were rushing to send me off because they had to bring my sister for an important medical check up as she was just get discharged from the hospital. Other parents stayed with their children, but my parents sent me off and went back home. I was all alone sitting in my room, thinking what would happen next, who my roommates would be. Then, someone came near me and said 'Hi' and that's my roommate, Anie, a pretty creature. After like an hour, we were asked to go down and follow the facilitators to the sports center. We rushed that I forgot to wear my sports shoe and went down late. We had aerobic exercise session and after we were done, we ran to our rooms as we were only given 30 minutes to freshen up and get ready to come down for another session. I don't remember whether I get to bath or not, but I was wearing the same shirt because I had no time to iron a new one. I was starving to death and had my stomach aching like all the bacteria were eating my stomach walls. To worsen up the situation, my phone broke and I couldn't call my parents. I called them via my friend's phone and they came to meet me. I was crying because I was so tired and hungry. The next day, we had a lot more busy sessions, we had to rush to places. The whole week was so tiring, I had no food, I only had biscuits. I still remember I walked miles from the hall to my room because I didn't know that shortcut existed. I stopped by at a small store to buy some more biscuits and the moment I came back to my hostel, we were asked to gather for another session. I rushed to my room, threw my bag of biscuits and ran down. I was so hungry and my legs were paining like hell because I walked the whole college to reach my hostel. We had a lot of activities, we had our classmates meet up, sports and many more. The orientation was like hell. Finally, the last day arrived. We slept off in the room and I was almost crying because the facilitators were angry at us. I had to call my Indian facilitator to bring me to the hall. I sneaked into the hall. I was bloody excited that I was going to go home that afternoon. Finally, the one-week orientation ended and my dad came to fetch me. I went back home for 2 days and came back to college on Sunday. There, we are not allowed to go back in the weekdays, cannot go out in the weekends unless we are given permission to, can be banned from going out if we return to college after 7 p.m., cannot play truancy, and a lot of strict rules. But it disciplined me and it was all rainbow days. I had bad moments too, but good moments are worth to remember. 

The place where everything began! What a beautiful life I had! Tears can still roll down my cheeks if I think of you!
Selangor Matriculation College, where the BEST phase of my life took place.
A lot of struggles, endless assignments, too much of stress yet, I managed to go all way through.
I wish I could go back. I wish I could sleep in my room (AP3-T4-18) with my two beautiful roommates. I wish I could hug my baby friend, Syuhada and sleep with her. I wish I could still laugh and make silly jokes with Anie. God, these are the best people in my life. Anie, Syuhada, and me in that room for two semesters, two beautiful semesters. I wish I could still sit in the tutorial room and adore my lecturers, I wish I could still wait at the corridor just to see my crush pass by and smile silently. I wish I could still do assignments with my friends till late night. I wish I could still walk in the college streets and hoping to run into my crush. Why it only longed for 11 months. I miss my friends and the life I had. I wish I could go back to Syu and Anie and breathe KMS air. 

I dedicate this to my course mates! Come on people, we will be successful one day! We strive together, we will be someone in future. Breathe!